Ha, last post was quite long ago. I have a bad tendency to get really exited quickly and also get bored really quickly. I realize this as a problem and I try to fix it. a lot has been going on. Mostly in my own head. I am researcher and this depression is like research of myself. I have turned inside of myself. It is hard but also necessary when I'm building myself again, piece by piece. Letting go of all old baggage and beliefs. And it is long way, which is very difficult for me because I like to get thinks done quickly and move on. Well this depression have learned for me that I'm not able to do this just achieving things. I just have to be. Trust that everything goes as it is meant to. I know that depression can be lethal but I trust life, I'm learning to trust myself. My heart and soul has always been aching for something, something that I don't quite know about. I have tried to search that something from outside of myself. But really that all is in me. All fulf...
This blog is about recovering from depression and anxiety. And also about our little farm and old house, type of detached house build after the Second World War for the families of soldiers who fought in the battlefront in Finland. I write english though I'm finnish, because as funny as it is, I address my feelings and thoughs better in english. and also I hope I give support for everyone who is struggling in this world, no matter where you live. So, my english is not perfect, but I'm trying.