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Something about me

The first text is always difficult to start. I have started many blogs before, but after a while I just forget them. Well, this time is different, I hope.

It's funny to write on english. I often think in english which I have been thinking is it quite normal? But hey, there in no such a thing as normal. This is one thing I try to avoid. Word normal, there might be  a word average, but I try to avoid that too. One of my old student friends gave me a lot of inspiration by saying "none of us is normal". This is one thing I like to highlight here.

I was diagnosed to have inattentive AD/HD in 2014, now I have suspection about Asperger too. I am 33 years old woman and I have always been struggling more or less. Well this might explain a lot. I have on and off depression and anxiety while I feel I dont't quite fit in to this world. Many doesn't even know that because I'm very good to compensete and I still find a lot good too. But sometimes this world is just little bit too much for me and I go down. Especially when there is too much happening, things that I can not handle.

I bought this house with my family after me and my husband had a severe marital problems. Mostly because of me. This house have saved my life and probably our marriage too. We both like to live modesty and do things with hands and in the nature. I'm obsessed about nature and history and many more things that I write in future.



I have been working for a three years in a project called "Mesänomistajien luontoverkosto" - "Forest owners nature network", or something like that in english. Project is funded by METSO -program by enviromentministry. I have loved working in forest and with the forest owners but my sicknes has took even that joy away. Now I can't concentrate to my work and I get panic attacks, but I'm f****n trying. I have medication and it has helped a lot. I'm also waiting to get to psychotherapy.

I get joy about my family and this house, my friends who try to help me. So this is about me getting better. Day by day.

Whishing you good day my friend.

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  1. Unknown2. lokakuuta 2018 klo 7.55

    I hope that you keep writing this blog and I wish you all the best. ❤️

    VastaaPoista
  2. Minna-Liisa S2. lokakuuta 2018 klo 8.09

    Hi! It's nice to read your blog, I'll surely follow it :) I wish you all the best on your way recovering from depression and anxiety. You are gonna survive. We both will. The path is sometimes a bit difficult, but we just have to believe it is possible to go through it.

    And I am also excited to read more about your little house by the river :)

    Have a good day!

    VastaaPoista
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    1. Unknown2. lokakuuta 2018 klo 23.45

      Thank you. Yep, the road is quite shitty. I have been fighting so long, trying to encape it, now I try different approach. I try to face it.

      Poista

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